I woke up and everything was fine……for three minutes. Seriously, for three minutes I thought this
“Dip Quit” Journey was cake! Then my
first of VERY many cravings punched me directly in the face, and in the
stomach, and pretty much everywhere else.
I’ve had the “Fog” today, which is where I don’t see
anything clear, my brain is confused, my forehead has a ton of pressure on it
and it feels like two large knives have been inserted into my forehead. One of those knives has a midget doing pull
ups from the handle; the other knife has a midget jumping on top of the handle. My point is, even my headaches don’t even
know how to behave!
So far, I haven’t eaten a TON of food. I was expecting to eat non stop. I guess I have eaten some, but as of 12:39 pm
I have eaten: One bagel with bacon and cheese, a few handfuls of Sunflower
seeds (will tell you more about the AWESOME seeds soon), a few pieces of hard
candy, fake chew (NO nicotine) and one Meatloaf/Mashed Potato Lean
Cuisine. I know Lean Cuisine is just a
“TV Dinner” but it was fantastic! I
definitely recommend them and Stacy and I are both going to be buying
more. I believe she had the Five Cheese
Rigatoni.
As I was sitting in the parking lot waiting for the kids to
come out of school I just happened to look over and saw the guy beside me
spitting into a bottle. In case you
didn’t know, this 100 Day Journey is to help me QUIT chewing. I’m not sure why but seeing him spit into
that bottle made want a dip instantly.
Yes, I know how gross that sounds.
I also know that I have a heavy addiction to nicotine and my “choice” of
nicotine has been through smokeless tobacco for the last 16 years. To me, spitting into a bottle meant two
things. Someone was chewing tobacco and
chances were that someone was me, but not this time! Yes sir!
3pm-ish. Trying to keep my mind off dipping! I’m failing…Stacy had a great idea. She told me to try and make something and we
decided I’d whip up a batch of our home made chex mix. It helped me stay focused on getting through
day one and it kept me productive at the same time. Good idea Stacy!
For dinner we went to get some Chinese takeout. For those of you who don’t know us, we
absolutely LOVE Chinese takeout! Want to
hear something ridiculous? Chewing
tobacco even changed the way I eat/ate Chinese takeout! Usually, when we go get Chinese buffet take
out, I don’t steal any food off the buffet.
Ok, that’s a lie; I “test” a few things here and there. However, tonight, because I haven’t been
chewing, I “tested” five-six things! I
HAD to be doing something to keep my mind off chewing! Oh, and by the way, I won the “is she
pregnant?” bet with Stacy about the chick at the Chinese Restaurant. Ask her
about it! I don’t get to brag too often, so I am tonight while I can.
Well folks, it’s 9:20, which means I’m 21 hours and 20
minutes into Day 1 of our Journey. I’m
proud to say I have not touched any smokeless tobacco. Does Stacy want to punch me in the throat for
the fits I threw today? Probably….
We made it! Only 99
days to go….
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